*Swift explanation here, when I struggle to come up with cohesive, thought out, intriguing articles or mindless drivel, which ever you prefer to describe my work, I will instead do a disconnected creative project, that may or may not be connected to other works. Bear with me as I am working on other things, but until then, enjoy this. This is a work written a while ago, thus I am plagiarising past Sebastian, I know he would be disappointed.
I yawned, and quickly feigned attention towards the glowering man in front of me. His uniform the average color of navy blue- a color of consistency on earth. I watched him pace around the black-board like one of the World Guard would in front of the President’s Palace. He bent out his legs, letting us hear the click of his knee as it stretches out to let him launch across the length of the blackboard.
“Thus why the world fell upon its knees and we must constantly remind ourselves not be as power hungry and totalitarian as the nations of the past, but continue to be the United Nation of today and lead a life-” He gets cut off mid sentence by the ringing of the bell, just like it would be doing the other side of the world. The other side of the world, where its 3 in the darkness hours. The other side of the world, where they dress the same, talk the same, think the same, are the same as us.
“Listen children your dormitory work will be in rooms waiting for you to complete and bring to me tomorrow at 3 in lightness hours once again.”
I collect my books, which I had sprawled across my single desk. I shove them into the uniform satchel at the same time as everyone, just like everyone, and pace my way out the door. I close my eyes and let out a long breath. Faking attention is almost as hard as actually paying that man attention. Another teacher strolls past me, just the same way every other teacher does. I look out for the corridor that leads to my dorm: which I almost always walk past. I follow the white pain of the walls, each white patch exactly the same, so the whole wall was a perfect white without imperfection- all the same.
I stop, realizing that, somehow, I had past the corridor I always pass. I turn back, hugging my shoulders with my hands, allowing them to share warmth, I don’t really do it for that reasons- I just want to be different- separate from the single person every human is and, for a reason unbeknown to me, enjoy being. You see there is no individuality, there is only one human, but there are millions of them. I turn into the corridor, once again admiring the perfection of the constant white- always the same as the rest of the white corridor, never a shade whiter nor a bit less perfect. I look down at my uniform black shoes- a complete contrast to the white paneled flooring that once again never changed from the same monotonous color of perfect white and a dull grey separation. I hear a click of heels, a click of heels so uniform, so perfect, that its almost completely obvious that it has been pre-planned, pre-planned by someone who was so certain that they would achieve whatever it was they had wanted to achieve that the actually practised that heel click until it came out perfect.
I stop, stand in front of the same door I always stand in front of. Its so uniform- the same perfect white with silver numbers saying 27. I stare at it, hoping, wishing something was wrong, different, something that broke the rules, differed to the rules of our world. I sighed, knowing from the start my search was definitely futile. I pushed open the door, seeing Peter lying on the bed, stomach down, finishing the work he’d been set. Thats the difference between us, he likes it: the order, the repetivity, the cleanness of it all, but I don’t. We get along anyway, even if our views on life were almost exactly opposite.
“Hey” I mutter, only receiving a grunt in return. He raises his head finally acknowledging my existence. He slowly moves his eyes from his own work to me, staring.
“You took your time, I’ve been here for 5 minutes already. You miss the corridor again?” I nodded, glad he had bothered to speak.
“Got the same lecture from Reages on how we shouldn’t repeat the mistakes of our forefathers.”
“It’s true though, you realise? They ruined the world and then ran away to space- how is that not a mistake?”
“You’re almost as bad as him, you know? I just don’t know how you like this all?”
“We are going the right way, would you just accept that please.” That’s how he ended the conversation, I didn’t object though: I didn’t want to ruin the one friendship I had. I walked up to the blonde, simple desk once again simple, but thankfully not perfect, and all the same, all without cracks or marks, all the same. I pick up the leaflet with 3 simple words “27 Dorm Work” I flipped it open, read the instructions and started my essay.
I pulled off my blankets, allowing my eyes to take in the sun, which just shone through the curtain. I smiled, actually feeling the sun on my face for the first time in many weeks. The deep snow glistened, but didn’t melt so I pulled on my jacket, as always black with no exception. A note lay on the doorknob, resting, waiting for me to read and fulfill its purpose. I followed each word, describing to me exactly what my roommate and friend had to say- why he left early, without telling or warning me: to see the head of the school.
I watched the ball of paper as it spiralled down into the waiting anxious bin. I opened the same white door, walked outside, followed the same hallway and went into the same classroom.
At least, you would think it the same, but its a different classroom, exactly the same as every other bar the silver “History 4” on the door, just above the wired window. I walked up to my desk, which like in every classroom was number 6 in a semicircle of 20. The desks seemed to bend and form a cage around the teachers area, where the backboard, office and teacher was kept. It also allowed the teacher around 6 or 7 metres squared of walking and talking space. My current teacher (young, at a age I predict to be around 31 or 32) darted his eyes around his classroom, inspecting each of us, making sure each of were, not perfect, but the same.
At last he spoke.
“Welcome class, today, as I’m sure you know, is VFE day. In 1918 we invented Remembrance Day, in 1945 we invented VE and VJ Day. However, in 2133 we invented VFE Day, the day the 33 year war of worlds ended. Today we will go back to that Tuesday. It was 14th of April, 2133 when Russia finally succumbed to the forces of the UNE, and on the same day of final victory came horror. Two hours before they were set to evacuate the last of their people the US launched an atom bomb which shaped the world of today. That bomb landed on the heart of the UNE: Berlin.” Nobody stopped listening except me. The fact that all my classmates could still be so interested in all this right now was entirely disappointing to me.
After what had felt like 10 minutes, the same ringing bell rang, luckily our teacher managed to finish his lecture on time. We had learnt all about the end of the war and the events that had followed the fall of Berlin.
I walked down the hall, listening to the tip tap of shoes bouncing off the drum of floor. I had learnt a while ago that the floor had built so that one could be heard if they were trying to escape. It was obvious, the metallic drum was sounded every single time a padded leather foot struck the seemingly plastic floor. That was another thing that was always the same. Everywhere, the exact same noise comes out your shoes when the you touch the floor as it would if you were the opposite side of the building. I turned swiftly, swiveling on the back of my heel, as though I was on some freshly oiled floor. My head swung round- making my momentarily dizzy. The walked began to slope downwards, subtly, yet noticeable, the color of the perfect white walls seemed to doze off their perfection and turn a slight grey color. Many students argued that it should be painted, made just the same as the rest. The same as it all.
I finally reached the end of the hall. I stared deeply at the door, an assembly had been called, an assembly for a life-changing event. I had rolled my eyes at that announcement, we are constantly called for assembly for reasons virtually irrelevant. Eventually I swung open the door, frozen as I saw each head turn towards me. They were all puzzled, confused on why anyone would be insane enough to go down the corridor I had just walked down. It was just too much of an insanity to be considered a possibility to the children I spent my days with.
I sat down quickly- not wishing to draw any more attention to myself then I had already done. I closed my eyes, allowing myself to breath out all the pent up air I had.
“Students, Colleagues, Friends, I stand before you the bearer of good news. I stand here telling you that a Free Country has finally fallen, succombed to the power of the United Nation. The City of Lagos has fallen after some months of siege. We shall have a free day on the 17th so you may do as you please. Also the year end is coming so last years need to choose their future-”
I tuned out, choosing rather than hearing the life changing news of the City of Lagos, but instead listening to the rhythms in my head. I felt the tension rising in the crowd, as though they were having their future told to them and it was looking grim. I knew what he was saying by the look on my fellow students’ face. The slow pounding “thump” in my head was warning me of the coming headache. I felt the strength that my eyesight gave me slowly wane. My head was a pounding of boredom and pain, but worse still I had no idea what was happening.
I felt my ability to hear, smell, touch all leave. My entire body seemed to collapse into a spasm of loss. “Copy, copy, copy” drilled repeatedly in my brain, wanting me to listen, to follow orders. I feel my body give way. Go rigid. All at the same time. My body was using no muscles, yet was sitting straight as a pencil.
Then, as fast as it came, it left. I moved my thoughts around my brain, attempting to discover the answer to what I had just experienced. Trying to explain why I had just fallen apart.
The speech came to end, leaving me with the walk back to the room to ponder on what I had just gone through. I felt my way to the door, choosing to focus on one sense instead of all of them. My hand smashed the door open, allowing me to whimper my way out. I felt light bare down on my shoulder as I walked through the large doors. I followed the sounds of steps to my dorm, managing not to miss the hall this time. Unfortunately I overshot the door, finding myself in front of door 31.
I got back into my room. My experience in the hall still echoing through my head. I couldn’t take it, I lay to rest. I tried to sleep, hours upon hours of trying and failing until suddenly I realised I was in a dream. There was one thing I did not realise though, I was too focused on myself to realise. Too stupid to think about the one little thing. Peter was gone.